Well I have survived another year on this planet. I don't feel "older".....But I definitely feel wiser. I have learned a lot about myself int he past year. I have had a lot of growth mentally and emotionally. I have lost forty pounds and am getting to where I have a lot more energy. Not to mention the fact I don't hurt from extra physical exertion or unexpected slips on the ice. I feel better than I have in years. Physically and emotionally. I finally crawled out of the gray depths of depression for more than a very short while and have stayed out. I feel like "me" again, just better than before. The other big thing I have learned is to be grateful and appreciative of what my body can do.
I have decided that now is the time where I get that second childhood. Twenty/thirty something again but with the wisdom, self love and confidence I lacked the first time around. I am working on regaining the perspective and energy I had for life then. The world is my oyster and anything is possible kind of attitude. I have at least another twenty to thirty years left and I want them to be good. I want to have fun, make a lot a of great memories and have a wonderful time. I am looking forward to getting my body back into prime physical condition. I am curious to see how close I can get to regaining the strength, energy and stamina I had in my twenties and early thirties.
I went for a hike in the desert at a favorite spot. The weather was gorgeous. I took my good friend and neighbor with me. We have been to a lot of the same places and we have talked about "getting out" for a while. So I drug him out to accompany me on a "birthday" hike. Wonder if he'll be willing to go out hiking with me again. Ran him into the ground I am afraid. Of course the fact he partied too hard the night before did not help. I took it easy on him though. I set a slower pace than normal, at least for me anyway. Well we shall see.
I was appalled to realize it has been at least four years since I went out and played int he desert. I used to go several times a month weather permitting. This was my second time walking out cross country from the "top" of the small canyon we hiked up through. The first time was the last time I was there four years ago.
Yesterday was my "Friday". I put in seven hours at work on five hours of sleep. Then I went on a three mile hike. I was so jazzed when I got home that I ended up going out and working on my front roses. Pruning and weeding around them. Yes, I got to the pruning a good month late this year.
And the best part? I get to go out and hike it again today with my sons! It is going to be another beautiful day.